Embrace the Crazy

So I was channeling my main character last night.

Wait.

Let’s reflect on that first line.

channeling my main character…

I see a new blog post in your near future.

I see a new blog post in your near future… or is it a glob on your screen? Either or both, a blog or glob, I see.

Not only was there channeling involved, but it also implied that I’ve done it on more than just this one occasion. Now for a minute let’s set aside why I was doing it and focus on the fact that I was doing it. There are few career paths one can take in which that sentence would make total sense. Writer, actor, and psychic (human or pet) come to mind. Each of which contain its own level of crazy, some more accepted than others.

Up until recently I’ve been rather embarrassed of that crazy nature. I wasn’t afraid to tell anyone that I liked to write or that I had ambitions of publication. My embarrassment manifested in hiding the times that I was either writing or researching for a particular story.

If I was out at a coffee shop to write, I would do my best to find a corner where no one could see what I was working on. My intention was to keep people from asking about the story (because who wouldn’t want to know, right?). After looking back on it, I think it made me look more like a creeper.

When it came to research, I relied heavily on the internet. Even if I could get a valid perspective from a living person, I would avoid it so as to not have to explain that I was writing something.

Silly, I know.

I’m not exactly sure what has changed my mind about all of this. Maybe one of these channeling sessions unintentionally rewired something. Who knows. What I do know is, I have no more qualms in asking questions of people who might help further my stories with their personal insight. I also don’t try to hide my work. If you try to ask my a question while I’m jotting something down in my spark catcher, you’ll just have to wait until I can get the full thought out.

I’ve decided to embrace the crazy.

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